141. Can't walk out

Just saying these two sentences, He Jin can't say it anymore.

He Father suddenly remembered that three years ago, He Jin argued with him in the Huada dormitory. He snarled his unwillingness and asked if they had understood him. Have he asked what he wanted, didn’t want anything, liked it. What, don't like what...

At that time, the father did not understand, only that He Jin did not understand things, and an impulse told him the truth of the past.

He Jin calmed down, was discouraged, went home, he no longer rebelled, no longer resisted, and obediently cut off the relationship with the boy.

He is now acting like an adult, mature and sensible, serious work, blind date... everything looks good, He father thinks, if he wants it, he should feel relieved, but he does not, He Jin three years ago When he argued with him, he repeatedly appeared in his mind. Compared with his observation of He Jin in recent years, He Father always felt that something went wrong.

Yes, his child seems to have lost the ability to be happy. It is not the "unhappy" that is deliberately expressed on the face, but the pain that is suppressed in the depths of the heart. Only in places where no one can see it will be inadvertent. The ground leaked a little bit.

He Father did not forget, when He Jin clenched his fists, shivered his shoulders, and yelled at him angrily - I don't want to become a person I hate in the future!

Recalling that scene, nearly 70 years old man was shocked. He trembled and smothered the cigarette butt and asked softly: "He Jin, do you like what you are now?"

The heart of He Jin’s silence for a long time jumped a bit because of this sentence, but it quickly became awkward. His father didn’t know how much strength he used, so he could stand here calmly.

He thought, I don't like it, is it important? The important thing is that I like you, you like it.

"Just like that, I have no choice." He Jin calmly said.

Empathy, if he was born as a mental retardation, is a disability, will his parents give up on him? No, they will raise him well, so even if there are more grievances and regrets, he will not abandon the sick mother.

The grace of parenting, the responsibility of back-feeding, this is what he should be a man and a human being, even if the price is to give up his happiness and happiness.

He father sighed long, and he suddenly reacted. He Lin’s tragedy and the influence brought to the family were actually not carried by He Jin...

He Jin saw the old man frowning deep lock, and in turn comforted him: "Dad, you don't think I have any resentment against you? Don't think about it, I am fine, my mother is a lot better, you yourself Also pay attention to it, take less smoke, and you are healthy and healthy with your mother, which is what makes me most reassured."

He Father nodded nodded. He Jin turned around and went back. He watched his TV with his mother. At 10 o'clock, he went back to the room to sleep on time.

Two days later, Qin Lan came to Q City, and the fans met at 2 to 5 pm that day. The venue was in the Palace of Culture. Local TV newspapers and online media had already begun to report.In the past three years, every time I heard the name of Qin Yu from the surrounding population, or inadvertently saw the other party's image on the mobile advertisement, it was a great touch to He Jin's heart, so he never dared to see Qin.炀 Related news.

This day is Saturday, He Jin does not have to go to work, and was arranged to go to noon to go to the niece of his dad's former colleague's cousin. At about 11 o'clock in the morning, he went out.

The city of Q is very small, the most lively place in the city center, there are only a few roads in the east and west, and the restaurants in Hejin are located in the Shengyi Square, which is a kilometer away from the Cultural Palace. It is a very good Cantonese restaurant.

At 11:45 when I arrived at the restaurant, there were fifteen minutes from the time I met with the woman. He took a look at the woman's information received in the bracelet - Duan Shurong, 27 years old, Q Department TV editorial staff, S provincial media Graduated from the Chinese Department of the University, talked about a boyfriend, hobbies...

No need to look at it later, He Jin directly sent a text message to the other party, told the table number, and then asked for a cup of Italian coffee, calm down, and began to draft the draft to prepare for the rhetoric.

Usually dating a date, the woman is a little late for a while is normal, He Jinben thought that at least half an hour, but the other party did not arrive at twelve o'clock!

"Excuse me, is He Jin, Mr. He?"

Simple plaid shirt, plain gray cotton sweater, wearing a pair of black-rimmed glasses... Duan Shurong tried to connect this person with the white teenager in memory.

He Jin suddenly looked up, his eyes lit up: big eyes, pointed chin, long straight hair, simple and elegant OL knee skirt suit, is a beauty.

"Miss Duan, hello." He quickly reached out and held a hand with her, then calmly pointed to the seat in front of him, "Sit."

Duan Shurong’s gaze did not move away from He Jin’s face. After she sat down, she asked indefinitely: “He Jin, don’t you remember me?”

He Jinyi, who looked up and stared at each other's facial features, he shook his head and apologized: "Where have we seen it?"

"We," Duan Shurong's finger drawn a line between the two: "The same school in junior high school."

He Jin slowly widened his eyes, as if he had thought of something, but it was very vague...

Duan Shurong smiled a bit and said: "When there is activity in the school, we often partner to do the host. I like you when I was in junior high school. I also wrote a love letter to you, but you gave it to your mother. Your mother called me. Insulted me a meal, remember it?"

"Ah!" He Jin exclaimed, "It's you!"

He instantly became ashamed and embarrassed, looked at each other with incomprehensibility, and the events of that year came to him.

It was also an embarrassing shadow. He didn't dare to think about it, so he slowly forgot: "I'm sorry, I... I didn't expect it."

"I didn't expect that I would come to you with you?" Duan Shurong asked.

"Well..." Yes, because after that, he was completely hated. If Duan Shurong still remembers him, it is absolutely impossible to come to see himself. Therefore, although the name is a bit familiar, He Jin still did not take this person with junior high school. The girls in the next class are connected.Duan Shurong smiled and said: "I didn't want to come, but after so many years, I was really curious, how did you become, so this time it is more like seeing old classmates."

He Jin squinted, inexplicably breathed a sigh of relief, handed over the menu, said: "First order."

Duan Shurong smiled at him and flipped the menu and said, "You really haven't changed."

He Jin pushed the glasses: "Which can be, it has been more than ten years."

"I mean the facial features and temperament of the five senses." Duan Shurong ordered a few dishes and asked for a drink. He Jin recruited the waiter and placed the order. Duan Shurong saw the coffee in front of He Jin. "Do you drink coffee before meals?" It’s not good for the stomach.”

He Jin smiled a little, and every time he made a cup of coffee with the girl, he was used to it, just to keep his mind clear.

The two talked to each other about what happened in the past few years. After graduating from high school, I was admitted to a university. What work has been done in the past few years? The dishes came up. The two touched the cup. He Jin suddenly solemnly said: "Secretary, I am sorry."

Duan Shurong: "... eh?"

"The letter was not handed over to my mother. It was my mother who turned it out. She had the habit of checking my bag. I put the letter in the book cover of the language book. She still found it. Maybe It was too nervous for me to show flaws," He Jin smiled. "I didn't expect that she would make those things later. Fortunately, seeing you today will give me the opportunity to express my late apologies. ""

Duan Shurong was stunned, but he was touched by He Jin’s apology. He said, “What is your mother? It’s no wonder that you have been back for three years and haven’t found an object yet!”

He Jin: "..."

Duan Shurong coughed a little and said: "To tell the truth, this time I came here, it is also a bit of a prank. In fact, I really want to see if your mother knows that she is trying to find out what people are looking for. The blind date object was that she was called by her fox fox, little seduce, shameless, what would she react to, huh, huh... but now I don’t want to watch it, as long as it’s a normal girl, who I want your mother to be so difficult to get married."

He Jin listened, not only did not get angry, but even "snap" and laughed out, although Duan Shurong said that it was a bit rude, but also the truth, he nodded: "You are right." This world is estimated to be only her pro The son can bear her.

Duan Shurong stunned. She picked up the cup and drank the drink. While looking at He Jin with the beautiful big eyes, it was hard to imagine that such a woman could teach such a gentle, quiet, clear and elegant son.

In fact, she still has a reason not to say - the reason why she will come to see He Jin is because she still has a little bit of affection for him.

He Jin used chopsticks to order the dishes on the table: "Come on, don't let the dishes cool. It seems that today's meal is a feast for me to replace my mother."

Duan Shurong snorted: "Even if it is a blind date, it should be yours."He Jin is like a girlfriend who tolerates bad temper. He smiles and says, "Yes, thank you for giving me face and eating more."

Duan Shurong ate two dishes and couldn't help but said: "Oh, actually I have inquired. The aunt who introduced me to you said that these years, you seem to have been rejected by the blind date..." She lowered her voice, "You Look at the Q city is not big, come and go to single, the conditions are not bad, just a few, how did you do so many people refused? Not all because your mother is difficult to get it? That aunt also Let me be careful, inquire, ask if you have any hidden diseases!"

He Jin raised his hand to cover his mouth and raised one eyebrow: "Do you really want to know?"

Duan Shurong put aside the chopsticks, and he was ready to be mentally prepared: "Let's talk."

He Jin swallowed the dish and sipped his coffee slowly. He said, "Before telling each of the blind people, I told them that what I want to say is true, not an excuse for perfunctory, and Please keep them secret for me, because my parents don't know about this, especially my mother, I don't want her to know, so I hope you..."

"Well, I will keep it secret for you!" Duan Shurong interrupted him. She is an acute child and can't wait to know the truth.

He Jin looked at her and said seriously: "I have been with men."

Duan Shurong’s expression froze and her face became a bit weird. She whispered, “Are you gay?”

"I don't know, because I only like him a man, but this should be considered a kind of homosexuality. To be honest, I don't know if I can accept women. I want to try to find a girlfriend, but So far, the girl who heard this truth has rejected me directly," He Jin smiled. "However, they all kept their promises and did not promote my secret everywhere."

Duan Shurong: "Do you know that it has nothing to do with the promise? I know women, we all like gossip. The reason why everyone didn't say is that you..."

He Jin: "I?"

Duan Shurong moved: "You said the sentence just now, give me the feeling, very sincere."

She doesn't know how to describe it, just think He Jin

That moment is particularly fragile, especially painful... Women are always easily moved by such men.

"Hey, He Jin," Duan Shurong sighed with courage. "Actually, I don't care much about how you used to be. Do you want to try with me?"

There is a gratitude in He Jin’s eyes: "Duan Shurong, there are also a small number of girls who are still willing to try with me after hearing this truth. They probably want to help me... but," he raised his eyes and looked directly at each other." If I said, I haven’t let him go yet?”

No woman can tolerate her own contacts and still remember her predecessor, not to mention that this predecessor is still a man.

Seeing the other side's silence, He Jin sighed and looked down at the coffee cup that had bottomed out. He struggled: "Duan Shurong, thank you, but I can't do anything sorry for you."

For three years, the self-curse in the letter of the breakup written to Qin Yu was efficacious.He can't start any more women. He tried and worked hard. When he was in contact with the first blind date, he almost insomnia every night, countless coffees, because of sleeping pills, and even went to see the psychology for half a year. The doctor slowly supported this relatively normal skin...

He can lie to everyone,